Wednesday, January 20, 2010
When we hold their tiny bodies close to ours and look at such sweet innocence it is difficult to imagine how quickly the day will come when they will, in one way or another, fly from the nest.
We watch them go with a confusing combination of joy and sorrow, taking with them years of a kind love we never thought we were capable of - a love that will never fail. It is time to stand back and let them make the choices we cannot foresee but for which we have tried our best to prepare them. We have given them everything we know to give. We long for them to walk in the way we have shown them, knowing full well we can no longer make those decisions for the; knowing how just one wrong choice can have consequences that will last a lifetime.
I am in such a season. I stand and watch and pray. I can see the way a bit clearer, share from my experience the pitfalls and dangers that lie in the way - but I cannot keep them from doing what they want to do.
The Father, through the verses I have been memorizing this month, has used this to speak something to my heart. He has given me the freedom to choose. He has given me all that I need to walk wisely. He has drawn me to Himself, freed me from the grip of sin, and filled me with His Spirit. He has graciously filled my life with Godly people, profound teaching, and wise counsel. Then He has allowed me to choose the way in which I will walk.
I hear the cry of His heart as He longs for me to walk with Him. He will not force me to come. I have given Him reason to grieve over the choices I have made. I can see Him longing to give me His best while I chose to do what I thought was best. He has always welcomed me back with open arms and unfailing love, but I look back and feel great sorrow for having hurt His heart.
I still struggle with so many things, but I want desperately to walk in obedience to Him. He understands and reaches down to take my hand, leading, helping, guiding, forgiving. He asks only that I make the choice to put my hand in His.
"The Lord says, 'I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you. Do not be like a senseless horse or mule that needs a bit and bridle to keep him under control.' Many sorrows come to the wicked, but unfailing love surrounds those who trust the Lord. So rejoice in the Lord and be glad, all you who obey Him! Shout for joy all you whose hearts are pure!"
Psalm 32: 8-11
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