Thursday, March 11, 2010

Memorial Stones



"We will use these stones to build a memorial. In the future your children will ask you, 'What do these stones mean?' Then you can tell them, 'They remind us that the Jordan River stopped flowing when the Ark of the Lord's Covenant went across.' These stones will stand as a memorial among the people of Israel forever."
Joshua 4: 6-7


There are times, when I write what is on my heart, I feel I need to give a little "disclaimer." I worry that it may appear I think I have somehow "arrived." Nothing could be further from the truth. I believe I struggle more than most, and it is because of that insufficiency that I record the things the Lord so lovingly and graciously doing in my life. I don't want to forget.

I pick up the stones of remembrance and pile them onto the pages of this blog as a memorial. I look down the path and pray that as my children and grandchildren come along behind me they will see the stones and discover here what they mean...


When I pray and ask the Father to forgive me of my sins, I always ask Him to fill me with His Spirit. I ask in faith, but often there comes a little dart of doubt that pierces through the defenses straight into my heart. I hear about the experiences of others and wonder why I don't feel those same things. The little dart begins to spread its poison, and I wonder if somehow there is something wrong with me. Have I somehow gone wrong? Is there something amiss with my own faith?

A short time ago, I was reading some Christian literature, and there was that feeling in my spirit that all was not right. Without going into all the details, it turned out that it was indeed, something that was not Biblical. It was confirmed over and over again.

It was as though the Father was assuring me that all was well. He is so lovingly patient and gentle with me. I am such a slow learner. In my heart I know that His Spirit dwells within me, because I am His child. Those doubts may come, but I know the truth. However, He took the time to reassure this troublesome daughter.

There was such an overwhelming feeling of gratitude and joy. It seems a simple thing as I write it down, but it means so much to me. To know I am loved in such a way brings me to my knees.

There have been other things these past few days - answers to prayer and reassurances of His tender mercy and grace in my life. I am overwhelmed anew at the lovingkindness of the Father. When I am so consumed with self that I drift away from Him, He reaches out and draws me back with such love. I haven't words to praise Him adequately. He is everything to me.

"And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may be with you forever; that is the Spirit of truth whom the world cannot receive, because it does not behold Him or know Him, but you know Him because He abides with you and will be in you."
John 14: 16-17


Blessings,
Linda


4 comments:

Cassandra Frear said...

I am also grateful for the help of our Comforter and Guide.

Blessings to you.

Nancy said...

" I pick up the stones of remembrance and pile them onto the pages of this blog as a memorial." I just love these words...they have nudged me to want to get back to my blog and I hope to at some point. You really have a way with words and you often inspire me, challenge me, reinforce my thinking or simply put a smile on my face; and that my dear blogging friend Linda, is a blessing indeed!

Maxine said...

I, too, like those words about piling those stones of remembrance on the pages of this blog. That's why I view blogging as a blessing. And I agree with your friend Nancy about your being a blessing!

Heather said...

Linda... oh, Linda... how do you always DO that?? Every single time you post, you hit me right where I need it most! Thank you for this timely reminder-- the Spirit is our helper, our guide, our strength, our very present help in trouble... oh, I needed that today! Thank you~

And blessings for a wonderful weekend!