Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Beloved



The weak light of early morning filled the bedroom window, carrying the promise of another glorious day. I lay for a few moments and tried to pray - feeling the distance between us again. It is a distance of my own creation - made up of feelings of guilt, remorse and unworthiness.

I began with thanks but quickly drifted into confession - the same old sins yet again. The distance widened, and I asked Him, "How?" How can He forgive me over and over again?

It is always the same - this giving in to ingrained habits and selfish desires. There is the moment of decision, the rationalization that it really isn't such a big deal and I'll do better tomorrow, the step into rebellion. The distance widens.

It becomes difficult to accept the grace and forgiveness freely offered - and the question weighs down my heart, "How?"

There came a gentle whisper this morning, "Because I love My Son too much not to. To withhold forgiveness would be to denigrate the sacrifice." The distance closed and my heart wept with the realization of such love - a love that extends to even me. It has nothing to do with my worth and everything to do with His.

Such love compels me to embrace the forgiveness He has provided with such amazing love and to turn from those things that would seek to separate me from Him.

"and behold, a voice out of the heavens, saying, 'This is My beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.'"
Matt. 3:17

Blessings,
Linda

picture taken at the Christian School in our neighborhood

6 comments:

Heather said...

"... the realization of such love - a love that extends to even me. It has nothing to do with my worth and everything to do with His."

How beautiful... how true. So why do we always need to be reminded of such truth, over and over and over again?? I guess b/c of our sin. And our flesh. But-- praise Him!!-- that very Truth never changes and It's never withheld. Hallelujah for grace!!

Have a lovely day, Linda... and please... keep on writing :)

grammy said...

Deep thoughts to ponder (o:
Liked your post on 'Growing Up'
Happy Fall

Sandy said...

We will always need to be reminded
of His love and mercy simply because
we are human. He is so wonderful to
forgive and forget and help us to
carry on, always taking the next
step with us in our journey.
Love,
Sandy

Maxine said...

I could ditto every word. But you said it much more beautifully. . .

Eyvonne said...

Oh how I relate to this experience! Thank you for your beautiful words.

Maria said...

This is so beautiful, Linda~ God gave His son ~ it's an amazing thing to think of such a sacrifice. How blessed we are to have this precious gift of forgiveness.
Thank you, Linda, for reminding us of this very special treasure... to take and to give away as well.
Bless you always ♥
~Maria