Monday, February 28, 2011

A Gentle Whisper

It stands silently, rather unobtrusively, under the bedroom window waiting for night to fall. It knows that before I hop into bed I will turn the knob that sets its blades whirling and dancing with life. Its gentle hum filling the room, lulling me to sleep.


It first made its appearance when my husband experienced a ringing sound in his ears. We thought the noise of the fan would cover the ringing and help him sleep. It didn't work as planned, but I have become so used to that constant noise I can't sleep well without it. It has become smugly secure knowing we will even take it with us when we spend the night somewhere else. For some reason, when it isn't turned on the silence presses against my ears and I can't sleep. I have become quite dependent on it.

Ironic, since my word for this year is "quiet." Like the consistent hum of the fan, the background noise of my life had become a habit. I was constantly filling the silence, not realizing what I was missing until I simply couldn't hear myself think any more. Worse still, I couldn't hear that gentle whisper above the din.

There is a verse that keeps coming to mind these days:

"Your own ears will hear Him. Right behind you a voice will say, 'This is the way you should go,' whether to the right or to the left."
Isaiah 30:21

How I long to be all He created me to be; to live out the story He wrote before I ever drew breath.* I have a tendency to make difficult the simplest of things. I don't have to struggle to find the right path. He is right behind me. Think of it! He is speaking to me, and far too often there is so much noise I cannot hear Him.

I am deliberately creating little oases of quiet throughout my day. Places where I can escape from the noise and just be still. I don't always stop what I'm doing. I just turn off the clamor and drink in the quiet. And often there is the sound of a gentle whisper.

Blessings,
Linda

*"Thine eyes have seen my unformed substance; and in Thy book they were all written, the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there was not one of them."
Psalm 139:16

11 comments:

emily wierenga said...

oh Linda...

this is one of your most beautiful posts yet.
i hear his gentle whisper in it,
in you.

Christie said...

I love it! You just spoke my desire. I think my word is presence. I want to sit in His presence and learn from Him, to be like Him. What a beautiful love note you wrote!

Neva Flores said...

I agree, this is a most wonderful post. I use to listen to a box fan to sleep.......now a meditation cd......thank you for this this Linda

S. Etole said...

there's a gentle quietness in this ...

allie. said...

Lovely post!

About your struggles: let me share with you one of the most rescuing statements I've ever been given:
"Its not about our ability to follow, its about His ability to lead."

Doesn't that just quiet you right down?
Into rest?
It did me.

B. Meandering said...

He's indeed speaking to you and through you, Linda. The words are flowing and blessing us.

Anonymous said...

Linda, thank you for visiting me over at Being Woven. Of course, I had to come over her as well. I so appreciate reading today's words about "quiet". I need the "still" far more often than I think. Isaiah 30:21 is one of my favorite Scriptures too. May I truly keep my ears tuned for His voice always.
I love your fan story. My husband had an old one of these when we married and when it broke, we used a small fan. I found his original version online and bought us a new one that we can take with us in the RV:
http://www.amazon.com/Marpac-SleepMate-980A-Electro-Mechanical-Conditioner/dp/B000KUHFGM
Can't sleep without it.
May your day be filled with a spring in Your step, ~ linda

Sandy said...

I love the words "quiet" and "still" and
"peace" though my life is not always filled
with any of these. I found your words today
to be so comforting.

Anonymous said...

I think so many of us can relate, Linda. The Isaiah verse is one of my favorites! It is a great reminder and I will be pondering on it. Two of my favorite, uninterrupted quiet times when I can ponder and just listen for His voice are as I lay my head on my pillow at night. I love to drift off to sleep either praying or thinking about what He has shown me that day; the other time is first thing in the morning when it's just us two, before the day gets going. However, like you, I need to work in more quiet moments during the day.

Donnetta said...

Oh how well I remember when I first started training myself to "quiet". When everything would turn off and there was... nothing.

How awkward it seemed at first. Uncomfortable. I would easily become restless.

Now, I treasure every minute of it. As you said, an oasis.

Thanks for the reminder to find a bit more of that...

Helen in Switzerland said...

Hello Linda, I just found you on Linds' blog roll and enjoyed reading what you wrote here very much. I am also looking for the little oases of quiet in my life. It is incredible how often there is a tiny whisper when you do. Have a lovely weekend!