Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Feeling Sorry For Me


This is about the way I feel right now - "exhaustified." No one who knows me well would describe me as a Type A personality. I am quite the opposite. Weeks like this one, days filled to the brim with things to do outside my home, leave me feeling depleted. I'm not quite sure how to describe myself - perhaps introvert is the word I'm looking for. It isn't that I don't like to be with people. I love to be with people. It's just that after I've spent measurable time with others, I need to have a little bit of time alone.

There are seasons that don't accommodate that need, and, I confess, I begin to feel sorry for myself. I find myself whining inwardly about all the "stuff" I have to do and what about the things I want to do and can't I have a little time to myself.... well you get the idea.

I received a gentle reprimand about the whining the other day. Have you noticed how the Father tends to do that? I was in the middle of a really great pity party when He said (through the writings of Elizabeth Prentiss):

"If you love Him as I want you to do, you will offer Him the whole use of your day, as you open your eyes to the light of each morning, to be spent in active service or silent suffering, according to His good pleasure. You will not select the most agreeable task, but His task, whatever it may be; you will not disdain humble service, or be ambitious for distinguished service; you will lie, like a straw, on the current of His will, to be swept away and be forgotten, if it pleases Him, or to be caught up by His mighty hand and transformed thereby into a thunderbolt."

"...like a straw, on the current of His will..." I love that. Have you noticed that on those days when you feel as though you simply don't have anything to give and even less inclination to try, He is there? And at the end of such a day, don't you know in your heart that you are the one who has been blessed? "Exhaustified" perhaps, but blessed nonetheless.

Blessings,
Linda

17 comments:

Andrea said...

oh Linda I am sorry you feel "exhaustified" (great word!) I too feel the same way when my schedule is overloaded. I need the down time to function better.
I hope you get the down time you need. The Lord made you that way and knows you need it. He will provide. And I love the Elizabeth Prentiss quote.

Jennifer @ Studio JRU said...

Oh my goodness... that squirrel photo is adorable! lol Exhaustified, but blessed nonetheless. I love that Linda and I totally understand! :)

S. Etole said...

Oh, so true ... that squirrel pretty much makes a statement!

lil red hen said...

Linda, I know the feeling well. I'm glad to have people come to my house, but after a while I start wishing they would go home. lol But tonight I am physically exhausted --we're getting ready for chickens again.

Lyla Lindquist said...

I'm put together that way too, Linda. I need crazy amounts of time to regroup... And I'm pretty put out when I don't get it.

I'm thankful for your encouragement here, that He is there even on those exhaustified days when I'm at the end of myself. (Love that word, and the squirrel...)

Deidra said...

"Exhaustified." Did you make that up? May I please add it to my vocabulary?

I am just like you, Linda. I love to be around people and sometimes fool them into thinking I'm an extrovert. But honestly? If I don't get my down, alone, and to myself time I start getting all irritated and moody. Now I have a word for those moments!

Dawn said...

Great picture and great thoughts. I am exhaustified tonight. I really need solitude and get very little of it. It's been hot today and the girls and I have been out and about, walking in the heat, which just wears me out (not heat like yours, nor humidity, but hot nonetheless).

I am an extrovert, but do definitely need my time and space.

Cheryl said...

Praying for you this morning, and for an extra measure of grace. <3

Anonymous said...

oh yes.


the photo is really cute.

allie. said...

I suspect we are quite alike: I too, love people but need lots of solitude otherwise I feel frazzled.
If I have too much time alone I feel impoverished.
Oh what a complex lot we are!!

Brian Miller said...

at the end of our rope, who do we find...i hope you are given sweet rest to replenish your strength...

bekahjane said...

Me too. Me.Too.

Graceful said...

Yup, I hear you. Even though I am an extrovert, I definitely need alone time to recharge and regroup. It's hard to come by with two rambunctious boys in the house. That's why I get up so early, I think. I sit outside with my coffee and Bible, and it is GOOD!

Beth said...

Wow did I need that! I have tasks that I know He wants me to complete, but I'd rather find excuses and whine. Thank you for the gentle 'kick in the rear'! ;>)

emily wierenga said...

i love you.

deb colarossi said...

I love love this, Linda.
I am quite similar.
Having the four kid/adults, their friends, etc in the summer , night upon night of soccer and all the parents, well, I am very exhaustified. Blessed. Oh yes,
but still.

Christie said...

Splendidly said and I love that new word you created!