Monday, November 5, 2012

Pulling Back (really)


I feel very much the way this sweet little girl looks. I'm coming, shuffling my feet, praying you'll understand. I am embarrassed to think about the number of posts I've written declaring I was going to be cutting back on time spent on-line; that I was going to get more balance in my life; that I would be reading and commenting less.....yadda, yadda yadda.

Every single time, I slipped right back into my old familiar pattern. I reasoned that I needed to be an encourager (After all, isn't that what some people said I was?), and a good encourager reads all the posts and leaves comments every single time. The truth is - I was completely lacking in self-control and operating out of this inherent need for approval.

In the meantime, my husband sees more of the back of my laptop than my face, my piano is collecting dust, there are unfinished knitting and sewing projects, there are letters unwritten, phone calls not made, books on the night stand, a book waiting to be written....the list goes on and on.

I watched all of the talks from the Allume Conference and knew the Lord was speaking directly to me. It is way past time to make some changes. I am thoroughly sick of my big self. So......I will be a bit scarce around here from now on. I plan to write posts as often as I can (maybe I'll get more written this way!), and comment as time allows, but I am going to have to strictly limit my time on-line.

Just today, while I was doing my Bible Study Beth Moore hit me right between the eyes with this:

"What if we really believed that if we seek God's kingdom and His righteousness, everything else of true value would be given to us (Matt 6:33)"

It is difficult for me to pull back. My heart hurts to think I might lose some friends in the process. I would ask if there is anything you would like me to pray about, please let me know. I am apt to miss some things, but I promise to do whatever I can.

I love you,
Linda

14 comments:

Jennifer @ GettingDownWithJesus.com said...

You will never lose my friendship or my love or my admiration. Never, Linda.

lil red hen said...

I'm with Jennifer on this; you're my new friend, and I totally understand. This blogging thing eats up so much time that can never be brought back. I'll check in now and then to catch any of the wonderful words you leave for us.

Patricia said...

You know I know this in my life, too, Linda...and like Jennifer and lil red hen, you'll never lose my friendship. I'm cutting back on my subscriptions in google feed, but I'm not cutting out yours - so when you post, I'll see it, read your lovely words, and say a prayer for you like I did just now. Love you muchly, Patricia

S. Etole said...

Grace for the projects and the time you have in mind. Always look forward to your presence.

Deb Colarossi said...

I can certainly relate Linda. It was terribly difficult at first , but good things usually are .
Love and peace be with you.

Sandy said...

I will continue to read and enjoy whatever you feel led to write, Linda. Do as you believe the Lord is leading you.
Love,
Sandy

Anonymous said...

I TOTALLY get this, Linda, and respect this. Our lives have expanded and been improved by all of this wonderful access. And yet it can be so consuming. Will always find you!

Lyla Willingham Lindquist said...

Love to you, sweet Linda. With you, more than you might know. :)

HisFireFly said...

Go as He leads you - and He will take care of the details. You will be missed, but loved always.

Jennifer {Studio JRU} said...

True friends will understand, Linda. I understand. ((hugs))

Dea said...

God bless you ....I have been meditating on this verse in Matthew this week. What a beautiful promise. I want to live this too. I must for He is my life.. You are not alone in this. I hope you know that.

Ro Elliott said...

I hate that we just connected...but I am so thankful to have connected...and we will connect again when you return... blessings as you tuck into HIm...be refreshed and filled...and from what I see here...you are well loved and will be missed...but not forgotten for sure.

molly said...

Hooray for Linda!! Finally someone speaking out about the wasted time online, and I am thankful...thankful that I am not the only one feeling that this has become too much!! I loved the part where you said you were just sick of your self!! My husband is passed. I would give anything to have one more day with him. Close those lap tops, girls, and look at your husbands!! Truly. I am glad I found your blog, and thankful that this seems to be a good place to hang out...once in awhile!

Anonymous said...

I completely understand, Linda! You have been/are such a blessing and a true encourager, but by all means, follow God's leading and may you be richly blessed!