Monday, March 11, 2013

A Fickle Heart

Reading through the gospels, I try to press myself onto the pages - to see and taste and touch. I'm part of the crowd sitting on a hillside watching as He takes a little boy's meager lunch and feeds thousands of hungry souls.

I come, pressing through the throngs of people, to watch as He heals the lame, gives sight to the blind and frees the demon possessed. My heart thunders as, with a loud voice, He calls Lazarus from the tomb.

I listen to the parables as one whose heart is devoid of the Holy Spirit and wonder if I would have had ears to hear. With no one to explain, would I have understood?

He stands, this humble, ordinary looking man, and makes the astounding claim that He is the Son of God. I look at Him and wonder, consider all the miracles I've seen. But didn't the prophets do the same? How can it be that this poor man who doesn't even have a place to lay His head is the longed for Messiah? Would I turn and walk away when the controversy surrounding Him became too heated? Would I follow the crowd, bend over and pick up a stone? (John 8:59)

I sit in my comfortable little chair. Sunshine pours through the window and spills across the table. I am here, with my Bible, books, teachers, preachers, unlimited resources and the Holy Spirit residing deep within - and still faint shadows of doubt obscure the light. I pray; give me an undivided heart Lord. And now, as then, He reaches out in love and draws this fickle heart to Himself.

I am joining my sweet Laura today:




  1. Such a lovely photo coupled with your thoughts.

  2. Oh Linda, I have often thought, "Would I have believed?" and I'm so thankful for the Word of God to show us He was the Son of God.

  3. I wonder about the look in His eyes, and i wonder what power was felt in His presence.

  4. Hello, beautiful lady. I love this image you give me tonight: I try to press myself onto the pages. I don't know why, but that just speaks in your voice to me. And it makes me miss you so. Sending love to you, Linda.

  5. yes... beautifully said, linda. give me an undivided heart Lord!

  6. oh Lord, I echo Linda's prayer tonight. keep me solely devoted to you, no matter the cost. amen.

  7. I was just reminded this morning of his faithfulness to and overwhelming love for me, even in all my shortcomings as I, too, strive for an undivided heart!

  8. My prayer is so, so often the same, Linda.

  9. Your words and that image, each alone is beauty, together, beautyFull.