Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Journety to Trust - Surrender - Day 16

"By wisdom the Lord founded the earth; by understanding He created the heavens. By His knowledge the deep fountains of the earth burst forth, and the dew settles beneath the night sky."
 Proverbs 3:19,20

Somewhere in the long days of teetering between fear and faith there began a slow process of letting go. I stood small before the creator of heaven and earth and began to catch a glimpse of who He is. And how He loves.

I read verse after verse and the vague form began to take shape. The image of hard task master and judge faded, and truth painted a picture of mercy and grace. I reached Psalm 139 and wept at the depth of His love. My hungry heart embraced the understanding that here was the Author of my life - writing my story before I took a single breath.

This was not a whimsical God - loving one minute and distant the next. His thoughts about me are more numerous than the grains of sand. He places His hand of blessing on my head and assures me that nothing can every separate us.

This mighty God; this One who holds eternity in His hands waited. The thought takes my breath away. He waited for me to choose. I look back now and wonder at such love - and patience. Then He asked, in the gentlest of voices, "Do you love Me enough to trust Me?"

I opened my hands. Opened to let go and to receive. In that moment of surrender the tears flowed. Tears of sorrow and joy all mingled together. I understood in that moment that I was letting go of everyone and everything most dear to me and placing it all in His hands.

And there was such peace.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
 Jeremiah 29:11

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