Monday, May 13, 2013

My/His Plans

"On days when your plans are thwarted, be on the lookout for Me! I may be doing something important in your life, something quite different from what you expected. ...Don't try to figure out what is happening. Simply trust Me and thank Me in advance for the good that will come out of it all. I know the plans I have for you, and they are good."
"Jesus Calling"   Sarah Young

Last November I was closing in on 40,000 words, happily writing Matty's Story. All was well until I became my own inner editor/critic. Suddenly I couldn't write a single sentence that made sense to me. So, in typical (for me) fashion, I set it all aside.....for months.

I did what I always do - agonized, questioned, prayed, questioned, felt sorry for myself and on and on. A few endlessly patient friends encouraged me, and I finally made a decision. It was time to get back to the story. This was to be the week. Lots of consistent writing time.

This week has different plans. We finally have Physical Therapy appointments for my husband who has been struggling with sciatic nerve pain for months. That will entail trips to the V.A. twice a week - a forty minute drive one way. There is Bible Study, Volunteer Work, an emergency dental appointment, preparations to attend our oldest grandson's high school graduation. Our Sleep-Number mattress has sprung a leak. A new one has been ordered. In the meantime we will sleep in the guest room. And so it goes.

I do not do well when I have weeks filled to the brim. I like nothing more than quiet days at home. When they disappear from my life, I get sort of frazzled. Truthfully - very frazzled.

I read the words in Sarah Young's devotional - words that make their way into my heart in spite of the fact that I don't really like them all that well. I am a master planner. List writing is one of my specialties. I can easily drive everyone around me to distraction with my desperate attempts to control not just today but all the days to come. It is futile. I am way past old enough to know that.

I am also way past old enough to know Jesus is absolutely trustworthy and His word always true. He gently pries my fingers open and places His hand in mine. I follow Him into this week.

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