Thursday, October 3, 2013

Journey to Trust: Day 3


Trust - "firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability or strength of someone or something"

If anyone had asked me if I trusted God, I would have answered "Yes," with absolute conviction. I loved Him and the desire of my heart was to know Him more.I believed that I trusted Him. However, I didn't live as though I did.

When confronted with life's inevitable disasters, I turned confused eyes heaven-ward and asked, "Why? I've tried my best to do everything right. Don't I deserve to be happy Lord?" Somehow, according to my own system of checks and balances, I thought I had earned a little joy. The down-side of my little system was that every time I failed I waited for the the "righteous hammer" to fall.

I read those words and feel a sadness for the girl who wanted so much to please the God who already loved her unconditionally. The girl who struggled mightily to control everything and everyone around her - to keep life manageable and free from pain.

She had yet to learn to open her hands to the One she loved - to receive from His hands both joy and sorrow with the absolute assurance that all would be well.

Blessings,
Linda

3 comments:

SimplyDarlene said...

And I was raised in such a way that when things went right, that's when the dreaded hammer would fall -- we lived outside of God's grasp, but full within fear that the nasty ole enemy used to rule our hears.

I'm so thankful for meeting the Lord God Almighty!

Blessings.

SimplyDarlene said...

And I was raised in such a way that when things went right, that's when the dreaded hammer would fall -- we lived outside of God's grasp, but full within fear that the nasty ole enemy used to rule our hears.

I'm so thankful for meeting the Lord God Almighty!

Blessings.

Anonymous said...

Glad to see that you went on a nice trip.